Month: May 2005

  • At risk of sounding like a pessimist, I have to say Star Wars Episode III let me down. I was disappointed. Though the special effects were amazing, the machines, droids, space ships, etc looked awkward and unconvincing. Though the acting was satisfactory, the movie lacked plot. It was simply a filler between stories to connect the dots, and it did so with out innovation. Characterization as a whole stunk, with the possible exception of the Emporer and Darth Vader. What the heck was with General Grievers? I mean who is he even? And why did Lucas think he could get away with massacring children. Did he think calling them “younglings” instead of children would make it more acceptable? It went too far. I thought this was a lesson we learned in 1936 when Hitchcock created Sabotage and discovered that killing children was not a good thing to put on the big screen. Oh well, I suppose we never ever truly learn our lessons.

    For the record, I am actually in a much happier mood and will no longer be acting like an emokid. For now . To prove it I will point out a positive trait in Episode III. It actually surprised me and made me respect George Lucas a lot. When Palpatine . . . seduces (for lack of a better word) Anakin to the Dark Side, he says that to truly understand the great mystery one must open himself up to all sides of the “force.” This, of course, includes the dark side. I thought it was interesting how it was the evil Emperor who was criticizing the Jedi for their “close-mindedness.” He said that one could never grasp true power while holding on to the narrow dogmas of the Jedi. Interesting. Lucas made the bad guys open minded, and the good guys close minded. This is not a common contemporary stance. Typically the media praises the open minded as the hero and portrays the narrow minded as the evil bigot. One must be careful, though, that he does not become so open minded that he does begin to include the “dark” side of life. Or else he may fall into a volcano, survive, and return as an evil War-Lord. By the way, I attribute this good trait to the fact that Star Wars is a product of the Reagan Years. Do I think too much?

    On a completely different note all together, I think Angelina Jolie looks really hot in this Mr. and Mrs. Smith movie coming out. This is significant because I was not a fan in Tomb Raider. She just didn’t look good then.

    P.S. What’s with all the xanga bugs?

    P.P.S. Is it just me, or has anyone else noticed a disturbing similarity between Emperor Palpatine and the new 6 Flags Great America mascot (the old guy in the tux)?

  • “Staying home alone on a Friday, flat on the floor looking back on old love, or lack thereof. After all the crushes have faded and all my wishful thinking was wrong, I’m jaded. I hate it . . .”


    Get this. You’ve heard me complain about boredom, right? My parents certainly have. So my parents send me to the grocery store to buy a bunch of food. I come home and my dad and siblings are gone. Where did they go? Great America. They just decided to up and go to Great America while I’m at the grocery store. And now here I am with nothing to do.

    And then as if to rub it in, they’ve now called three times and e-mailed phone taken pictures of how much fun they are having. Currently sipping an Orange Dream Machine from jamba and listening to More Than Useless by Relient K in an attempt to recharge myself.

    *alright already I’ll stop with the complaining*


    “I’m tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here. So tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here” (John Mayer).

  • “All that noise, and all that sound” (Coldplay).


    I’m slightly angry(/sunburned) at work and slightly depressed that I couldn’t find anyone to go to the jupiter sunrise/this day and age concert with me. (protected whine will follow)

    Edit: And by slightly I mean really. *insert emo wailings* I miss my home.


    “Times like these I’ve come to see how, everything but time is running out.” (Sum 41).

  • “In this world there’s real and make believe, and this seems real to me . . . I’m tore between this life I lead and where I stand” (3 Doors Down).


    I’ve decided my favorite episode of Everybody Loves Raymond is #0313 (“Whose Side Are You On?”). Jennie is right. They shouldn’t have let me come home from college. Maybe later I’ll turn this into a post.

    “I won’t worry my life away” (Jason Myraz).

  • So I’ve decided life is a road. Life is just one big road- maybe a highway, and we are the squirrels that try to cross it.

  • “How long before I get in? before it starts? before I begin? How long before you decide or before I know what it feels like? Where to, where do I go? If you never try then you’ll never know. How long do I have to climb up on the side of this mountain of mine?” (Coldplay).


    Sorry for the lack of recent xanga life. I’ve been lax on my posting and subscription reading.

    Things are finally starting to pick up. I went to lunch with Jori on Tuesday, which was really fun. I hadn’t really seen her since graduation, so it was great to catch up with her. We went to Potbelly and talked about college and the Book of Mormon comic book and family, etc.

    Then yesterday I went and visited SHS, which was really nice. It was great running into everyone and catching up with teachers and friends. I was glad I caught Mr. Twadell and got to catch up with him. It was also nice seeing Ms. Heckle-O and Ms. Smith. And Jennie. ()

    You know I really miss everyone from BYU a lot. (Yes even this crazy kid). Anyway. Today I went and saw James’ choir concert and stopped by PAC to say hi to Susan and Saltzman. It’s been a great few days, but I have to say I am in a mood to rant despite it. I’m really frustrated with work, but I’m going to rant about something else so I don’t really loose it.

    The past few days Fox’s A Current Affair has been doing shows on a polygamous group in Colorado City and Eldorado Texas. I have been frustrated by the misconceptions the show has fostered. First of all, because the group has absolutely no affiliation with the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints founded by Joseph Smith, it is inappropriate to call refer to these Polygamous groups as Mormons. (according to the Associated Press Guidelines). It also irks me to death that FOX want’s you to believe that these people are a glimpse of what Latter-day Saints were in 1850. That is just historically wrong. The polygamy of the so called FLDS in Colorado City and Eldorado Texas and other similar groups is absolutely nothing like the polygamy of Brigham Young and the early Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

    Polygamy was not something that hurt women. It actually gave them freedoms that women did not experience out east during the same time period. Think about it. If a man has four wives, think about what that would mean for those wives. It would mean 8 hands doing dishes, not 2 or even 4. Women in plural marriages had more spare time for their pursuits. With a shared work load, things were done sooner and so they had more time. In a way polygamy is the ultimate feminist lifestyle. Is it really a wonder that the Mormons were some of the first to establish women’s suffrage, or that when plural marriage hit the ballot box it was the women who showed overwhelming support for it? This was not some barbaric, twisted sexual deviance, this was the way that the west was tamed, colonized, and found success.

    Look at Dr. Martha Hughes Cannon. She was one of 6 wives to an LDS leader. She was the first woman senator in the USA. She won elections as a Democrat that her husband lost as a Republican. How? Polygamy. Plural marriage enabled her to pursue education and career success. She is famous for saying, “You show me a woman who thinks about something besides cookstoves and washtubs and baby flannels, and I will show you nine times out of ten a successful mother.” And this isn’t an isolated case. Look up Emmeline Blanch Wells, Jane Richards, Sarah M. Kimball, Lucinda Lee Dalton, Reva Stevens Daniels Smoot, or Zina D. H. Young.

    FLDS leader Warren Jeffs and his associates are monsters. I am abhorred by the practices they do in secrecy, specifically the abuse. Real 19th century LDS plural marriage was not something that ever endorsed or even bred abuse. In fact it was a way out of abuse. Take for example Laura Farnsworth Frampton Owen and Martha Spence Heywood, both women who escaped an abusive marriage out east, crossed the plains, and married good husbands as plural wives in Utah.

    The polygamy of Jeff Warren’s is just not the same as the plural marriages done in LDS history. We tend to have this false image in our minds of a deviant man with 20 wives, some of them underage and all locked to the stove, slaving away for a hundred kids all to please the appetites of a man. And what’s worse is that Mormons in general don’t know enough about their history to dispel this image. My great grandfather was a real LDS polygamist. Let me tell you how it really is, what it really was like. He had four wives, yes only four. They were all adults when he wed them. He provided for them until the day the US government arrested him and threw his kids on the street. Yes, he was jailed. Why? Because he was faithful. I’m not talking about being faithful to his Church, I mean he was faithful to his wives. The government said that he had to leave three of his four wives, and that their children were illegitimate. (we’re talking anti-cohabitation laws/acts) He stuck by all of his wives, refusing to abandon any of them, and was thrown in jail and persecuted despite the fact that he had married all four of them before it was illegal to do so. My great grandfather ought to be pardoned. It sickens me that his heroic faithfulness tarnished his good name and made him criminal.

    Personally I think it’s a shame that so many Latter-day Saints are so embarrassed and down right ignorant of the plural marriages of their ancestors. I am proud of polygamy. I believe that it was God-inspired. I do not endorse it today because God Himself asked us not to, but I will take pride in our early leaders and the plural marriages they had. This was something that about 20% of LDS people at the time practiced, including most Church leaders. I support them and their memories. I believe that in its time period polygamy was exactly what the Church and the west needed.


    “Stand in the place where you live (Now face north). Think about direction, Wonder why you haven’t … Now stand in the place where you work (Now face west). Think about the place where you live, Wonder why you haven’t before” (R.E.M.).

  • “How can we fake this anymore? Turn our backs away and choose to just ignore? (Some say) Some say it’s ignorance. It makes me feel some innocence. Some say it takes away a part of me, but I won’t let go . . .”


    So I changed the tag line. Life is still intoxicating, but I wanted some change, and this Sum 41 song is something I’ve been listening to a lot lately, specifically for the lyrics that I really like. “Why is there no reason we can’t change?” I’ll let you think up your own answer. I have two answers, but I’m not sure which one is right.

    So not much has been going on here. I’ve started working more and more. Won’t be long before I’m completely into the grind. Other than that I’ve been doing lots of babysitting and house work. Reading too. I finished Philip Pullman’s His Dark Materials trilogy (again. I read the Golden Compass around 7th grade). The Golden Compass is an amazing book, but the other two were really disappointing. It’s like he forgot what “show don’t tell” means. Not to mention his anti-Catholic and anti-religion undertones became a little too much. By the third book he presented God as a weak angel who lied to us and pretended to be God when he really wasn’t. It was a little much for me. Not to mention the leader of this evil Kingdom of Heaven is Enoch, who happens to be a personal hero of mine who was very much involved not in evil but in righteousness. Oh well. I’m now reading Dune again. It’s been at least 5 or 6 years on that one too.

    I have also, at the Bishop’s recommendation, started reading the Book of Mormon again to see if I can finish it again before my mission. Wow my mission is sneaking up on me like a thief in the night (that I have known was coming for 19 years). It is exhilarating.

    Hmmm. Other news? I’m coming to visit SHS on Wednesday. Let me know when and where if you want to run into me. I’m already planning on meeting CHO at Artfest at noon.

    P.S. Who’s coming with me to see Jupiter Sunrise with Punchline, This Day and Age, and June. at 5:00 on May, 25 2005 at Bottom Lounge (3206N. Wilton, Chicago, IL 60411) Cost: $10 (I’ll pay if you make it a date )


    “. . . Tell me why can’t you see it’s not the way. When we all fall down it will be too late. Why is there no reason we can’t change? When we all fall down who will take the blame? What will it take?” (Sum 41).

  • . . . How can we fake this anymore?
    Turn our backs away and choose to just ignore?
    (Some say) Some say it’s ignorance.
    It makes me feel some innocence.
    (Some say) It takes away a part of me,
    But I won’t let go.

    Tell me why can’t you see it’s not the way.
    When we all fall down it will be too late.
    Why is there no reason we can’t change?
    When we all fall down who will take the blame?
    What will it take?

    If nothing could ever be this real
    A life unsatisfied that I could never feel.
    (Some say) This future’s not so bright.
    Some can’t make the sacrifice.
    (Some say) It’s more than just black and white,
    And I won’t follow . . .

    So how long, has this gone on?
    I don’t see this ending.
    It’s too late, we can’t change what has now begun.
    We act like, its not right,
    Why are we pretending we’ve been wrong for so long?
    We’ve known this all along.

    ~Sum 41

    (a real post coming soon)

    P.S. Over 20,000 visitors!

  • I changed the skin again. It was too much color.

    P.S. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy is the worst movie ever.

  • So I got a hair cut on Tuesday. I also went to the eye doctor and got more contacts. Yesterday I went to the dentist and doctor. I am now (health and grooming wise) ready for my mission. Now I just have to finish the interviews and send in those papers!

    What do you think?
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    After:

    P.S. That’s my autographed This Day and Age t-shirt I’m wearing.

    P.P.S. I changed the xanga skin drastically. It only looks good from the main page. When you go to leave comments it is hard to read, and so I am working on it. (click here to see the working skin). Please let me know if you like the new drastic changes or not. I was going for color- warmer colors. Maybe it worked.