March 21, 2005

  • "Stay at home alone on a Friday, Flat on my floor looking back On old love Or lack thereof, After all the crushes have faded And all my wishful thinking was wrong; I'm jaded; I hate it

    "I'm tired of being alone, So hurry up and get here. So tired of being alone, So hurry up and get here, Get here . . ." (John Mayer)


    It's really strange to be in the last 4 weeks now. It's getting harder and harder to focus and stay motivated when I know that I won't be back here for 2 and half years. I'm feeling anxious.

    I added some new profile pictures. My hair is getting long again.

    You know what I realized yesterday? I changed. In a way, I turned liberal. Does that mean that I am simply defined as being the opposite of the people around me? I hope not. I'm still right wing ideologically, don't get me wrong, but I am definately more . . . Well for example. At Stevenson I hated the tolerance and diversity that was thrown at me. But now, now I think I appreciate diversity, and I understand tolerance more. Perhaps temperance is a better word. Temperance. I have developed temperance. I hope that isn't code for wishy-washy moderateness. And I hope I haven't changed too much. There were things that I used to be so passionately against. And now I'm just not. Does that mean I have lost my passion? I would like to think not.

    I mean, I used to hate John Mayer with a passion- a passion based solely on principle. Now I just listened to a John Mayer song 16 times in a row. What have I turned into? We'll see what the summer brings.

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Comments (3)

  • I've heard college brings new-found awareness. If it doesn't happen now, when will it?

  • whoa whoa whoa, but you were my conservative friend. my like, ONLY conservative friend. Eh. *snaps* for tolerance though. Stevenson does have a way of forcing it down your throat though...world of difference anybody?

    & I gotta say, your John Mayer appreciation makes me smile

    James told me you get off in April. That's crazy. Post-AP testing I'll have LOADS of free time (I mean, I'm really only going to have one "class" left...& it's film, who needs to concentrate in that?!) & we'll have to do lunch then since I was sick when you came home last time. Let's call Anoush & Jessica & go on another picnic!

  • that is a great song! i used to hate john mayer but then my ex played st. patrick's day for me and it really applied the way things were between him and i. so now i am just addicted to his songs...particularly the room for squares cd.

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