Month: December 2004

  • Also, the Tsunami tradgedy in Asia is pretty bad and pretty scary. Please help out in any way you can. Click here (www.lds.org/ldsfoundation/welfare) to donate online. The First Presidency has asked that we all help, especially in our fast offerings tomorrow.

    “Because of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints’ long-held practice of storing ahead for emergencies, international agencies such as the Red Cross and others have called upon the Church, as they commonly do in crisis situations, for the provisions so badly needed. Church members and others who wish to help may make voluntary financial contributions to “Humanitarian aid” on the Tithing and Other Offerings slip or make donations online.”

  • I just want to let everyone know that I am very happy right now. I’ve had a good day yesterday and today. Perhaps I will ellaborate later.

  • Sorry for my lack of enthusiam/updates here on the xanga world. I’ve been uncharacteristically depressed . . . long story. But in any event . . . hmmm, I thought I had something to say.

    I had a really nice Christmas Eve dinner at my house with the fam (cousins, grandparents- everyone). Christmas was also nice. I got some nice clothes, an awesome new coat, and five CD’s- Howie Day, Yellowcard, Matchbook Romance, Simple Plan, and Jupiter Sunrise. The Jupiter Sunrise CD is amazing- you should all go an buy it (or listen to/download their free songs at www.purevolume.com/jupitersunrise) We played a really cool game called . . . darn, I forgot what it was called. Oh yeah, “Imaginiff” – it was fun. We also played Cadoo. Can I just say I hate Cadoo? It is the most frustratingly random game that is fairly dependent on cultural knowledge- something my family has not.

    Sunday I gave a talk about how my testimony has grown from my college experiences and how my college experiences have been shaped by my testimony. I was told I did a good job. I think it was about the fifth time I spoken in sacrament meeting this year including the time in my singles ward. I enjoy it though. That’s why I love teaching the gospel doctrines class so much.

    Monday I went shopping. The selection was depleted, frustrating my intentions to get some things I needed. Oh well, I will have to deal.

    Today I went ice skating with Megan and Jonathan.

    And now back to my music . . . “Kaye, are you even real?/Do you think that maybe we could be lovers once in a while?/Say something I can feel/I am never here and it’s impossible to heal/Go ahead and understand me underneath this killer blue sky/Go ahead and understand me please.” (There is a protected post today)

  • Is it wierd that I miss my room back at BYU? It must be. It is wierd to miss Deseret Towers, but I do. To an extent. I really enjoy being here with my family. This is home. I guess it’s wierd staying in my home on a inflatable mattress in the basement behind the pool table. And I don’t have my speakers, so my lap top doesn’t sound the same. It is high pitched and whiney- aparently my music must also miss my room. But sleeping in the basement- I thought it was bad when my roomate had to get up early or when a neighbor nocked on my door in the morning. I have people walking in the basement at the worst possible times in the morning. It’s not right. Where do you think Santa’s workshop and secret hideout are? Hmmm? That’s right.

    Christmas this morning was beautiful and giddy. And it is my last Christmas before I leave on my mission. My last Christmas with my family for two years. Talk about mixed emotions. Today I have felt like somesort of mixture between a toddler with chocolate cake and a thirteen year old girl at that special time of moon. I feel at once like I have lead the perfect life and am completely blissful to bask in this family which has been so blessed and like I have so much left to do that I can’t possibly finish it all before August. I don’t know. I have been toying with the idea of doing a spring and summer semester, but will that leave somethings unfinished?

    Someone needs to scold me. It is my last Christmas home for the next two years and I am sitting here writing meaningless figurative fluff. I’ll be back with something that means something later. (To tell you about Christmas Eve, the presents I got, etc).

  • I owe you an update. Badly. I apologize. I suppose I have been focusing my writing energies on other things.

    Oh, by the way, you should check out the whYunderground. Some interesting things there. There are articles available to the public, and then a forum/debate about the articles available to anyone who registers. Heather, you would enjoy the article on ageism.

    Anyway. I will back up to Friday, December 11th. That night a bunch of us went over to Lisa’s house (for her half birthday) to watch a White Christmas and the Three Amigos. We also played Disney’s “Scene It” the game, which was lots of fun. We also sang Christmas Carols, primary songs, and Disney songs around the piano, which was so much fun. I love Mormons. I probably had more to say, but it was so long ago.

    Saturday the 12th I watched Monty Python with Jenna and friends behind the Stake Center. That was also tons of fun, and I probably should have more to say.

    Sunday the 13th I taught my last lesson for 2004 and then went (I think this was the night) to the Zippi’s new house. It was so good to see them again. I missed them so much. I was proud of myself for not getting too teary. It is hard not having them here in Chicago anymore.

    Monday I had finals from 7 AM to noon. They were what I expected, and were not hard. I then had to finish up big partner project that I almost did not finish and that was extremely stressful. There was just so much work for Art History.

    Tuesday I attempted to study for the Art History final, which I took Wednesday the 16th, thus ending my first semester here at BYU. I think I did really well this semester, and I’m very happy about that.

    That night a few of us again went to Lisa’s house. This time to say goodbye to Kyler. That was harder than I expected. It really hit me how much the floor was going to change without him- I think his absense will change it more than anyone elses. Mark is up there though. I’m gonna miss him so much too. All these guys are leaving for missions, and I am next. It is a scary yet exciting thought. I will most definately begin to post more and more about it as August draws nye (and yes it draws nye). But anyway, I enjoyed playing apples to apples and then attatching adjectives to everyone. It’s very fun to get a list of adjectives and start matching up with the people in the room.

    Thursday I painted on the canvas I had prepped with compound. That evening I went to Octavio’s with Julie, Evan, and the Petersen’s. It was fun to be with them. After that Mark, Eric, Lindsay, Adrien, and I went driving in Rob’s car. We went up to Provo Canyon and Mark spotted a spine (as in vertebrae). It was so morbidly funny we went back to DT to get cameras and then went back to the Canyon to take disrespectful yet hilarious pictures with the spine, head, and three ribs of the otherwise completely eaten deer. Later we did not go paintball people’s windows. We would never do such a thing *looks up and to the right, er left*

    I ended up just staying up and not going to bed as I said goodbye to those who weren’t returning next semester. If I had gone to sleep when everyone else did between 2 and 3, I never would have gotten up for my shuttle at 4:30 am. So I drank my first ever *gasp* caffenated beverage- a 16 oz. Mountain Dew. Can I just say that whoever said caffene doesn’t effect your body lied. It gave me the biggest annoying high, and the biggest annoying headache. I felt like I was on drugs (though I don’t technically know what it feels like to be on drugs other than meds- but I can guess the feeling). No more mountain dew for me. I’ll stick with my addiction to orange juice. Anyway at 4:30 a.m. I got picked up by the shuttle to go to the airport to fly standby. The result was a very funny yet frustrating story that I have told too many times. The story can be found elsewhere on the internet *cough underground*. Or you can ask me for details.

    The nicest part of my flight was my first class seat on a triple 7 airplane. It was so nice! I had my own cubicle that rotated and had moving footrest and a personal TV and a mini closet for my coat. It’s a miracle that I got that seat, which is a nicer seat than the nicest my dad has ever flown in. Oh, and they served the most awesome warm nuts and turkey sandwich. Best I’ve ever had. Mmmm.

    I got home at 4:00 p.m. and went to Karen and Margot’s piano recital. It is so nice to be home and with the family again.

    Yesterday I went to Abby’s surprise birthday party, and then Megan and I left (leaving my car with James to drive himself home) and went bowling with Colin. It was good to see them again, and then we went to IHOP (the only place open that late, and they have hot chocolate), only to be called by James who noticed that I had left the car, but not my keys. He and Todd joined us (Todd drove his car) at IHOP, and then Megan drove us back to our car so we could get home. It was really fun to visit with everyone.

    Today I went to Church and spent time with my family. And that’s that.

  • “That’s the girl I’ve been telling you about
    Ain’t she everything I said and a whole lot more?
    She got it goin’ on and I never want to be without her”
    Blessid Union of Souls.

    Today I went to the sky room with Jenna. The skyroom is a fancy restaurant on the top floor of the wilk. center that has lots of windows and mountain/campus views. Anyway, It was a lot of fun. Hmmm. I feel like I have a lot to say, but I keep writing it out and it sounds supid. So perhaps that will have to suffice: I had a lunch date and it was fun. What will happen next?

  • Today was, perhaps, the best day I’ve had here at BYU thus far. But I am tired now. I owe you this entry, and will pay in full tomorrow. I also owe you a protected entry about how I sold my soul Thursday night and then learned the hard way that that is bad. Until tomorrow, you may wait in suspense.

    *tomorrow*
    I will organize this into three sections because each section is so different and one may appeal to you more than another. (one section is on other religions, another is on my religious experience, and the last on social events) So where to begin?

    Section One: The Museam and Art History
    (Begins with Lunch, then goes into my field trip to sacred sites of various religions. I express appreciation and annalysis of the contributions of those religions)

    Yesterday after English I had lunch with Chantelle in the Museam Cafe. It was a lovely lunch of bread, corn chowder, cheesecake, and good conversation. I feel like I should ellaborate more, but don’t know what to say.

    After lunch I opened an awaited package and read the beginning of an awaited book. Then I ran back to the museam, where I met my art history class. We proceded to pack into vans and caravan to Salt Lake, where we attended the 3:30 prayer at a Mosque. It was very beautiful to watch. I ended up turning my own thoughts inward in my own prayer and had a very neat experience. Then one of the Muslim leaders of the Mosque told us about the Islamic faith. It was very enlightening. I learned so much, and gained a new appreciation for the Muslims. Historically we have a lot in common. Islam was founded at a time when the Christian church was in apostasy and corruption. Islam was sucessful in eliminating most of the paganism in the area, something we Christians struggled with. They created a prayerful, God-fearing population that we should all appreciate.

    After the Mosque we went to a beautiful Catholic Cathedral in Salt Lake City. The Priest there was very welcoming, and I felt an immense sense of reverance during the mass we attended. I also, however, felt a great sense of loss. The pews were so empty. Everything felt so hollow. I wish that all pews could be filled like they once were. I have often wondered why LDS architecture has departed so much from Catholic architecture, which is beautiful. I discovered why last night.

    I never realized before how closely architecture is aligned with Church doctrine– specifically in the Catholic Church. The pointed barrel and groin valuted cieling and the way that it envelops space and emphasises vertical lines intentionally makes you feel small. Part of this is to direct your attention upward towards heaven, but it is also to make you feel humble and helpless (no negative connotation meant there). The Catholic message, as I have felt and understood it, is that because of the Fall we are born in sin and need Christ’s atonement to overcome that sin. The architecture is literally designed to make you feel fallen so that you will feel the need to call upon Jesus Christ for forgiveness.

    Latter-day Saints also preach a need for forgiveness from Jesus Christ. We preach that salvation only comes through Him and His atoning sacrafice. So why don’t we shape the space of our Chapels in the same way? I can’t be a money issue- The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the wealthiest Church in America if not the world. I think the real reason is, at least in part, over our diference in the idea of original sin. Though we believe Adam fell, we believe that all children are born innocent. We believe that men condemn themselves with their own words, deeds, and thoughts, and not with Adam’s fall. Further more, we put a lot of emphasis on each of us being a Child of God, and as such an heir to His glory. We believe that we have a divine inheritence based on our divine Parentage. Thus are architecture is also made to lift your eyes upward, but it is done so in a much different way. I could go on, and will if you ask me to, but I don’t want to bore you into not reading the rest of my day, which only gets better it went on . . .

    Section Two: Temple Square
    (A ward trip to the Salt Lake Temple to view the film Testaments- this is the best part of the day)

    After the Cathedral Seth, Sean, and I split from the Art History group and went to Temple Square. We ate some dinner and then met our ward there. I enjoyed visiting the beautiful plaza there at night and enjoying the lights, the beauty of the Temple, and the company.

    At 7:30 we went into the Joseph Smith Memorial Building to watch the Testaments in the Legacy theater. I had never seen the film before (it is only shown in the Legacy Theater and a Theater in Washington DC and is not yet available on video though it has been playing continuously for 5 or 6 years), but I have heard so much about I had very high expectations. I figured it would be predictable for that reason, but was actually very surprised.

    The movie really touched me. No other film has expressed our feelings for Jesus Christ more than this movie. It is distinctly LDS, and yet it boldly declares that Jesus is the Christ, the God of Heaven, and the Source of our Salvation. It takes place during the life of Christ, beginning with His birth, but unlike anything else I’ve ever seen, it shifts back and forth from Israel to the ancient American Continent. It does a beautiful job of putting the Book of Mormon in context with the Bible, and shows how both Testify of Christ.

    One of things that at meant a lot to me was the portrayal of one of the main characters who was an artist. The really show the temptations of the artists in way that at first offended me. I had to realize, though, that those temptations are real, and they showed them very acurately.

    The parts that touched me most were when Christ healed the boy as recorded in Mark 9 (Lord I believe, help thou my unbelief), the atonement of Christ, and the scene at the end when Christ heals Helam. The way they showed the atonement was breathtaking. I wept uncontrollably as I watched the Savior say, “Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done” in the Garden of Gethsemene. I could not bear to seem him suffer, be betrayed, be condemned, be flogged and spat upon, and be lifted up on the cross. I can’t even describe my emotions. And then to see an empty tomb. . . gall. It was just so powerful.

    I testify that Jesus is the Christ. I know that He lives. He is a guiding force in my life. He sustains me in difficult times. Throughout this movie, I had uncontrollable urges to fall at His feet and too ask for healing. The Bible and Book of Mormon are parallel Testaments of Jesus Christ. I believe in Him, and in them. I know both books to be true. The Book of Mormon has been a wonderful blessing in my life.

    When the movie comes out on video, hopefully next year, I will sent it to as many people as I can. It is lifechanging. Granted, I had my qualms with one of the actors and with a few artistic things, the message of the Testaments of Christ ring out above any flaws.

    Section Three: Dormward Bound
    (flirting on the busride home and in the S hall lobby)

    I rode home with Jenna. Lets just say that it was a very slap happy trip filled with moving lights, the seven eleven near New Hampshire next to Maryland, green alien eggs, and green Italians. Further explanation may be given upon request.

    Oh- and we also played a version of Murder. It was a very nice game because we all held hands in a circle and tried to kill eachother by squeezing hands. Some of you know what it means for me to hold hands. Lets just say I was right to think I would be back into the swing of things after thanksgiving. Further explanation may be given upon request.

    At the dorms Jenna and I played pool (Cut-throat) against Aaron and Jannelle, and Bridgette and Jason. It was fun . . ny. Jenna and I were a little slap happy, as Dani’s pictures will attest. After cutthroat we played various card games and other games like Grandma (also called Zip Bong) until 1:30 in the morning. Lets just say it was a lot of fun and I was feeling really happy by the time I went to bed at 2:20.

  • We all know that bubble wrap is one of the best inventions known to man, but sometimes it is hard to get a hold of. Well, not anymore. Now you can pop bubble wrap any time you want by clicking here. (what has happened to humanity?)

    What a week. I am worn out. Something happened today. Unfortunately it will have to be recorded in a protected entry just in case the wrong person reads it.

    Check out New Found Glory’s latest music video: “I don’t want to know”

    “first comes heavy breathing
    staring at the ceiling
    what will happen next
    i don’t wanna know
    i don’t wanna know”

    I like the song even though I’m not the biggest NFG fan, and the music video is really good. I love the twist in meaning of the chorus through the video. At first it is about meeting a girl you are attracted to. At the end it is about discovering that she is pregnant (at least that is how I interpreted it). Suddenly the words that engender cute, playful, youthful emotions in the beginning engender intense, regretful, and melancholic feelings at the end. It’s amazing what comes through the video that you wouldn’t hear just listening to the song or reading the lyrics.

    Also listening to “Somebody Else” by Bleu of the Spiderman Soundtrack. That is an amazing song.