I’m in a very good mood despite certain set backs. Like Senioristis. lol. “I don’t care.” Right now I just want to go home and paint. I’m very excited about my artwork right now because other people are picking up on the imagery and my concentration is starting to come together.

I’m really excited for February because I know it’s going to go by so fast. Senior night is next thursday, I can’t wait. Then there’s JV Conference on the 13th, and Swimming is over. I can’t wait.

It’s been an exciting part of the season right now. Last Saturday I broke 6 min. at Nequa Valley. Yesterday we destroyed Vernon Hills; I swam 5:59:04 on the 500 free. I might meet my season goal of 5:45 by JV Conference. Such is the power of taper. Speaking of taper, today is my last practice before full fledge taper. YES!

Tomorrow I have a pizza party at the Prows’s. Monday I get to wear PJ’s to school. Next thursday is Superhero day, so I get to wear a big cape and wear my speedo out side of my pants. Then next weekend is turn-about, which will be so much fun.

In two weekends it’s valentines day, JV conference, my brother’s play, a church dance, etc. So I’ll be jumping around everywhere. On the 17th I’m going to Iowa where I will testify on behalf of Jonathan. (long story if you don’t know it) I’ll get back on the 18th and then there’s Odessy. On the 27th I get to fly out to Utah where I have an interview with the Art Department of BYU. I’ll spend the weekend and fly back in time to go to an art show at the Great Frame Up on March 2. Wow it’s going to be an awesome month. Unless bad things happen and it becomes an atrocious month. That would be bad. Good thing it’s not going to happen.

La.La.La.

I’ve been singing that song since first period in my head (and out loud, lol) . . . “So what if your friends think I’m crazy. Well, I wasn’t trying to impress those girls anyway . . .” It’s one of those days that something happened that hasn’t happened in a long time that put me in the strangest mood and has taken my mind captive and won’t let my thoughts go. Lol. Maybe sometime soon I’ll get enough ransom to free them, but I’m in no hurry cause I’m really happy. *sigh* What a beautiful day.

Meet against Libertyville today . . . I’ll let you know by how much we kill them.

I’m very excited for the end of the season. This is the most fun part, and then it’s done for good, which will be so liberating. Even though taper’s not for another week or so, I can already feel the practices changing and the extra energy I have that I’m supposed to save. Sure there are additional factors and all . . . hehe, I was talking about swimming with my Gov’t teacher and this other girl (I don’t even know her name) and he asked her if she was sad that she was done with Swimming for good. She said no, that it was liberating. I can’t wait to find out how it feels.

Heck, I can’t wait for this Semester to end period. I’m so ready for summer, so that I can work, and then August, so that I can leave. “The world lives for the weekend. Well, I’ll watch as my weeks bleed right into them.”

I would like to nominate Mitt Romney for President of the United States . . . he’d do a better job than all these silly Demacrat losers. That’s it, after Bush, I’m going to start campaigning Romney

So wish me luck in the meet :/ I have nothing to do . . . except wander around singing Dashboard Confessional . . . No I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell. “where I’m from, We live like it’s the latest attraction”

“If you shut your eyes . . . you may see at times a shapeless pool of lovely pale colors suspended in the darkness; then if you squeeze your eyes tighter, the pool begins to take shape, and the colors become so vivid that with just another squeeze they must go on fire” (Barrie, 101)

“He was frightfully happy.” (Barrie, 165)

“So, Pan, this is all your doing?” “Ay, James Hook, it is all my doing” (Barrie, 187)

“We can’t both have her, lady” (Barrie, 201)

“He had ecstasies innumerable that other children can never know; but he was looking through the window at the one joy from which he must be forever barred.” (Barrie, 204)

Well now I know why I can’t fly. “It is only the gay and innocent and heartless who can fly.” (Barrie 214)

3rd place at St. Charles. It sucked my weekend away. Long Bus Ride. Fabian’s CD. Speech. Just keep swimming. and swimming. still swimming. bus. taco bell. fall asleep. live it down. phone.

Ok, I love Lucky Boys Confusion . . .

“Sparks fly, I hit the ground running . . .”

“Beware, I swear, I will be waiting there.”

“Here we go, never gonna see me broken/ Here we go, they’re never gonna see me broken/ Here we go, gonna keep my eyes open”

“Must’ve been a beautiful daydream”

“You used to be so perfect, why did I ever meet you”

“It’s getting quiet here again/ For a minute let’s pretend/ When I disapear the world stops turning”

And now that I’m reading the lyrics for the first times, you won’t like them Heather.

So I was sitting at my kitchen table doing my thing when all of a sudden Andy pops out my back door and jumps on me. It was the kind of de’ja’vu that caught me completely off guard. My brain was expecting the Prows’, and instead got Andy, who my brain thought was in Utah . . . lol, so I was dazed for a sec, but we had fun. Andy, Seth, Adam, Jeff, Gina, James and I went to Chipotle, then to Red Robin, then the Prows came over to my house. Fun times.

(actually I have the it’s alright I’m alright it only hurts when I breath song stuck in my head, but it doesn’t make sense cause I had an awesome day)

I GOT INTO BYU!!! yAy! I’m so happy.

Except I’m mad at BYU because they put my acceptance letter in a small, thin envelope, and that scared me. lol.

I swam Varisity in the meet tonight and made some best times! Varsity won, but unfortunately without me JV suffered its first loss. *tear* lalala

Wow, that was fun. My brother and I just went to Jeff and Gina’s house to hang out and no one else showed up so we just talked and had popcorn. It was great. James and I told great stories. Wow. I can’t stop laughing. So many good quotes, hehe
Jeff: “Have you ever noticed those Goths . . .”
James: “To me, Goths are invisible.”

HaHa! Ok, you had to be there. It was great.

And now, wow, I got 4 new cd’s this weekend . . . I love Dashboard Confessional!!! They are my new favorite next to Goo Goo Dolls only. “As Lovers Go” is Amazing, as is “Rapid Hope Loss.” Sooo good.

My Januaray CD:
As Lovers Go (Dashboard Confessional)
Rapid Hope Loss (Dashboard Confessional)
Bend and Not Break (Dashboard Confessional)
Carve Your Heart (Dashboard Confessional)
You and I Both (Jason Mraz)
I’ll Do Anything (Jason Mraz)
On Love, In Sadness (Jason Mraz)
Sleep All Day (Jason Mraz)
Follow Through (Gavin DeGraw)
Over-Rated (Gavin DeGraw)
Rescue (Eve 6)
Nocturnal (Eve 6)
So Beautiful (Dashboard Confessional)
I Am Missing (Dashboard Confessional)
Hey Girl (Dashboard Confessional)
Several Ways to Die Trying (Dashboard Confessional)
Morning Calls (Dashboard Confessional)
Clocks (Coldplay)
Flying (Peter Pan Sountrack)
Peter Returns (Peter Pan Sountrack)

“Stars are beautiful, but they must never take an active part in anything, they must just look on for ever . . . They are not really friendly to Peter, who has a mischievious way of stealing up behind them and trying to blow them out; but they are so fond of fun that they were on his side tonight, and anxious to get the grown-ups out of the way. So as soon as the door or 27 closed on Mr. and Mrs. Darling there was a commontion in the firmament, and the smallest of all the stars in the Milky Way screamed out: ‘Now Peter!’” (J.M. Barrie, 27).

“‘Don’t go Peter,’ she entreated . . . so there can be no denying that it was she who first tempted him” (Barrie, 40).

“I’ll teach you how to jump on the wind’s back and then away we go” (Barrie, 41).

“No one ever gets over the first unfairness; no one except Peter. He often met it, but he always forgot it. I suppose that was the real difference between him and all the rest” (Barrie, 115).

“[T]here is a saying in Neverland that, everytime you breathe, a grown-up dies; and Peter was killing them off vindictively as fast as possible” (Barrie, 139).

“If you wish it”

“Oh, the cleverness of me!”

“One girl is worth more than twenty boys. I live with boys”

“I shall know it when you give it to me.”

“Aye, that is a kiss. A powerful thing.”

“This belongs to you, and always will”

“Forget them… forget them all.”

“Come with me, where we’ll never… never have to worry about grown-up things again.”
“Never is an awfully long time.”

“We must leave at once… before we, in turn, are forgotten.”

“I want always to be a boy and have fun.”
“You say so, but I think it is your biggest pretend”

“What else is there?”
“There is so much more.”

“The window is shut! It must always be open.”

“To die, will be an awefully big adventure.”

“To live, will be an awefully big adventure.”

“Me? Forget? Never.”

“Old, Alone.. Done for!”

I want curly hair and to sword fight and to fly and to have my . . . only I also want that house. Yes. I want to live in that house when I grow up.

Happy 2004.

Dec. 30. Dance. Blast Rapid Hope Loss by Dashboard. Great song. It is me.

New Years Eve. Saw Peter Pan. It was awesome. Me likes. Went to Prows’. Megan, JP, Gina, Andy, Riley, Collin, James. Seabiscit. Fell asleep. Yay it’s 2004.

New Years day. Megan, Mary, Dana. Dorky Disney song fits: Notice me. Artist? Then Dashboard. Cheaper by the Dozen. Good movie. Megan. Jeff. Can’t stop laughing.

Friday. Swimming. Wedding Reception. Congrats Matt Bond. Home. Now. You and I Both. ” . . . baby I know. When it comes to being lucky [I'm] cursed, and . . .”

I wish I was Peter Pan.