October 22, 2003

• Thankyou Megan Vallely! Megan gave me Simple Plan’s CD (before I only had 5 of their songs from itunes). Such good music.

  “I’d do anything” It’s still my second favorite song, well maybe. But it’s funny because I don’t relate to it anymore. It’s a feeling I don’t have anymore for someone. lol. Not that that’s bad. It means “addicted” is over too. Wow, I was so obsessed.

  I’m liking “You don’t mean anything.” Listening to it right now it, and it is reminding me of a conversation we had this morning in the RC. We were talking about how most people hate the people that are just like them. While that may be true, it’s a very scary thought, because I really don’t like some qualities people have that I really hope I don’t have. So then we decided that maybe we hate the people who represent who we don’t want to become. That might be more accurate for my situation, but that would mean that I would have to admit that there is a possibility that I could become like them, which I don’t like either. But then there’s goo goo dolls, “what you fear is your desire.” So then I decided to just say that there are other factors like jealousy and random acts of cruelty. Those would apply, especially to last year.

  *sigh* I don’t even know anymore. I’m thinking to much about it. Maybe that’s because I’m becoming better friends with my “arch enemy.” I hate(d?) him so much, so am I allowed to not hate him? Part of me says no, and I’m not so sure it’s the wrong part of me. Yes, I know I’m wearing a stupid bracelet right now from Seminary that’s supposed to remind me to forgive and befriend someone who I don’t like, but this isn’t an issue of forgiveness anymore. Ok. I’m stopping.

  “I’m Just a Kid” is a great song. Depressing yes, but I like that phrase, “the world is having more fun than me.” How true is that. And many times I can relate in the sense that “I think I have a lot of friends” but I don’t have time to do stuff with them. And it’s just a good tune.

  “When I’m With You” Heather would say this song is sad. I would say that it is sweet. I dunno. I like it, and it me think about a lot of things. Parts make me think of homecoming. Other parts make me think of Great America and the rain. “But everytime you call you don’t have time.” That part is sad, because it is me. I’m the one who doesn’t have time. Time. It’s such an evil precious thing. There’s never enough and yet it never ends.

  “Meet You There” is sad, but it is sincere and sweet. It makes me think of regrets and special people that I miss. One in particular that I’ve been thinking about today. Lot’s of “I wish I could have['s.]” Gosh, I have so much to say, but I can’t really. I guess it’s just that I took for granted someone so special, and that hurts. I wish. I wish I could go back and have done things differently, but in Dakona’s words, “I’ve gotta lot to learn.”

  “I won’t be there” is a funny song. If “I can’t stand you, you can’t stand me” can be funny. Wow, just because my music is sad and angry doesn’t mean I am.

  “One day” also has a fun toon. One I can relate to, to an extent. What teen can’t? It’s all about one day being grown up and not having to do what your parents tell you.

  “Perfect” I used to relate to I guess maybe sort of. That one is even too depressing for me though.

  And “Grow up” is a great song. It’s fun to listen to, and it was definately me first semester last year. “I like to stay up wasting hours on the phone. Hanging out with all my friends and never being at home.” Why can’t I be like that now? Oh well, just wait until after the AP show is over. Crazy college kids will be home, and I’ll be 100% senioritis.

  Wow. There’s a hidden track . . . Christmas list. lol. It’s funny if you don’t think about it. No comment.

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