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Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday Dear Andy
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Take a moment of silence today.

Thankyou Megan Vallely! Megan gave me Simple Plan’s CD (before I only had 5 of their songs from itunes). Such good music.

“I’d do anything” It’s still my second favorite song, well maybe. But it’s funny because I don’t relate to it anymore. It’s a feeling I don’t have anymore for someone. lol. Not that that’s bad. It means “addicted” is over too. Wow, I was so obsessed.

I’m liking “You don’t mean anything.” Listening to it right now it, and it is reminding me of a conversation we had this morning in the RC. We were talking about how most people hate the people that are just like them. While that may be true, it’s a very scary thought, because I really don’t like some qualities people have that I really hope I don’t have. So then we decided that maybe we hate the people who represent who we don’t want to become. That might be more accurate for my situation, but that would mean that I would have to admit that there is a possibility that I could become like them, which I don’t like either. But then there’s goo goo dolls, “what you fear is your desire.” So then I decided to just say that there are other factors like jealousy and random acts of cruelty. Those would apply, especially to last year.

*sigh* I don’t even know anymore. I’m thinking to much about it. Maybe that’s because I’m becoming better friends with my “arch enemy.” I hate(d?) him so much, so am I allowed to not hate him? Part of me says no, and I’m not so sure it’s the wrong part of me. Yes, I know I’m wearing a stupid bracelet right now from Seminary that’s supposed to remind me to forgive and befriend someone who I don’t like, but this isn’t an issue of forgiveness anymore. Ok. I’m stopping.

“I’m Just a Kid” is a great song. Depressing yes, but I like that phrase, “the world is having more fun than me.” How true is that. And many times I can relate in the sense that “I think I have a lot of friends” but I don’t have time to do stuff with them. And it’s just a good tune.

“When I’m With You” Heather would say this song is sad. I would say that it is sweet. I dunno. I like it, and it me think about a lot of things. Parts make me think of homecoming. Other parts make me think of Great America and the rain. “But everytime you call you don’t have time.” That part is sad, because it is me. I’m the one who doesn’t have time. Time. It’s such an evil precious thing. There’s never enough and yet it never ends.

“Meet You There” is sad, but it is sincere and sweet. It makes me think of regrets and special people that I miss. One in particular that I’ve been thinking about today. Lot’s of “I wish I could have['s.]” Gosh, I have so much to say, but I can’t really. I guess it’s just that I took for granted someone so special, and that hurts. I wish. I wish I could go back and have done things differently, but in Dakona’s words, “I’ve gotta lot to learn.”

“I won’t be there” is a funny song. If “I can’t stand you, you can’t stand me” can be funny. Wow, just because my music is sad and angry doesn’t mean I am.

“One day” also has a fun toon. One I can relate to, to an extent. What teen can’t? It’s all about one day being grown up and not having to do what your parents tell you.

“Perfect” I used to relate to I guess maybe sort of. That one is even too depressing for me though.

And “Grow up” is a great song. It’s fun to listen to, and it was definately me first semester last year. “I like to stay up wasting hours on the phone. Hanging out with all my friends and never being at home.” Why can’t I be like that now? Oh well, just wait until after the AP show is over. Crazy college kids will be home, and I’ll be 100% senioritis.

Wow. There’s a hidden track . . . Christmas list. lol. It’s funny if you don’t think about it. No comment.

Homecoming Pictures

Homecoming was so much fun. I’ll go into more depth later, but basically Weggs came over. We saw Dana and Lauren at the football game, went to Megan’s, went to the football game again (shh!) and then went to my place. Pictures at 6 (isn’t the pink bow tie hot?) though the girls were 2o min late . Fun times from there at P.F. Changs, (that was the best part) where the Ivie’s showed up, lol. Libertyville dance, and then cosim bowling. How hot is that?

Anyone know a good Assassin?

Well, where to begin. Conference (General Conference is when twice a year our Church leaders come and speak to the Church via satellite world wide) was good- like I said, I love hearing from the prophets, so what did they have to say?

“Now Brothers and Sisters, refuse to be used. Refuse to be manipulated. Refuse to suport those programs that violate traditional family values . . . let us speak out with courage” – M. Russell Ballard

And one of my favorite quotes:
“Words can be used against you. If they throw the word diversity at you, grab hold of it, and say, ‘I’m already diverse, and I intend to stay diverse.’ If the word tolerance, grab that one too, saying ‘I expect you to be tolerant of my lifestyle: obedience, integrity, abstinence, repentence.’ If the word is choice, tell them you choose good old fashioned morality. You choose to be a worthy husband or wife, a worthy parent.” – Boyd K. Packer

Those were both from yesterday’s sessions. Today our family watched Conference at the Prows’s house. That was very nice, I had a good time, the food was great, and I enjoyed watching it.

My favorite talk of all was Elder Jeffrey R. Holland’s. He talked about the nature of God. It was very interesting and spiritual. When he started talking about my favorite passage of scripture, Moses 7, I started crying. I love that scene where Enoch asks God why he is weeping (starting in verse 20). I didn’t stop weeping myself until the next speaker. Elder Holland just kept speaking of more and more touching things. He mentioned things that related to my patriachal blessing, and he said specific things I needed to hear. I can’t even quote him, you have to listen to it. At least the end . . . he closes “in the spirit of the Holy Apostleship” saying things that truly had the magnifigance and power of an Apostle of Jesus Christ.

Thusday:
Had a good time timing the girls meet (no pun intended). I was leied by Melissa (pun intended)- not the first time. Allison cut some good time off her races- and swam a great 200 IM. Stevenson remained victorious over Mundeslime. I also had a really good conversation with another one of the guys. He was having some problems with the Catholic Church and I was able to explain a lot about my Church, and he really liked what I had to say. I think there might be a future there- he’s already interested in and open-minded about the Book of Mormon.

Friday:
I made some really good corrections on my first concentration piece- that was envigorating. I got really excited for homecoming, though I’ll miss a lot of people by not going to Stevenson’s. All in all it was a good day remembering things with Ms. Heckel-Oliver, Lisa, Jackie, Julie, etc. and planning for the future with Ms. Ackerman and Yelena . . .

Saturday:
Went tracting with the Missionaries, then headed over to watch Conference (Over all I watched 6 hours today). It’s always great to hear the prophets, but I’ll tell you about them tomorrow.

We had dinner at Dragon Inn- the best chineese food ever.